.:: Thru alex's eyes ::.

confession.

2011-03-18T05:32:00.001+08:00

5.33 a.m. 18 March 2011.

i can't sleep.yet i'm barely awake.

a tormented soul within a weak body.

yes, i'm falling apart.

당신을 사랑합니다

2011-03-17T00:00:00.011+08:00

March 17, 2011 @ 2.03 a.m.

happy birthday to Fanna, shaf and all.

___________________________________________________________________

Anyway,

I'm awake, wide awake. i have trouble sleeping lately.

wait, i have many troubles lately. sleeping, waking up, eating and studying and all.

too many things to handle a single time. tho i always think that i'm good at multi-tasking, that form is temporary and class is permanent, but i guess im wrong. things are a bit messy these days. i can't handle much.

nuff said.

___________________________________________________________________

Anyway,

I was browsing thru the internet and i found some website, telling how good their book on love and dating advice for women. they even said that it is so good and practical and if you didn't like it, money back guaranteed. here are some of the tips:

1. Without quality time, your relationship will not survive. Carve out at least half an hour a night, and at least one day a month when you the two of you spend time exclusively together. [how about long-distance r/ships?]

2. You will both need security, comfort. A good relationship is built on compromise and a great deal of give and take on both sides.[how to compromise without sacrificing your personal values?]

3. Keep your dependence and independence in balance. Tell and show your partner how much you need him, but don't cling, as that can make your partner feel trapped.[how?]

4. Encourage him to listen to you, by showing appreciation when he does. By the same token, show interest when he talks to you. Be aware that most men aren't mentally programmed for conversation in the way women are. They need more silence and internal time. [listen to what? drama?]

5. Make him appreciate you. Don't wait for a spontaneous compliment, but say something good about yourself and ask for his agreement.[self-praising?]

6. Learn to do the one thing that is most likely to restore good feeling in your relationship - giving your partner a genuine, loving and approving smile.[how?]

7.Often those subtle quirks that first attracted you to your partner can, with time, turn around and become toe-curlingly annoying habits. Learn to love him the way he is.[lame]

8. Hidden resentments poison a relationship; so if something bothers you, say it. Remember that while men are wary of emotional conversations, they love to find solutions. Express your problem and then ask him to help you find the answer.[easier said than done]

9. Learn that punishing your partner won't work. It may make you feel better to give him a hard time, but it will actually make him dig his heels in more. A better tactic is to reward the things you like and ignore what you don't like.[compromising?]

Now, i read it twice. no, thrice and for god sake, i think the author is a cheater who earns a lot of money by selling this crap advice. the wording is a bit vague. but i guess that's the whole point. the more confusing people get by reading his/her advice, the more money [s]he can squeezed.

I've raised question for each point and i don't think the author have the answers either. tho people can be categorized in general, there can't be a general advice in love or relationship as the circumstances would vary between person. when in love, each and every person are unique in their own way [or maybe stupid]. and their heart - has reason, that reason itself does not understand.

anyhow, kudos to the author for advices. not that i don't agree, in fact most of the point are quite true in a sense that it takes two to tango, but i hate the fact that people made a lot of profit out of other people's misfortune. but hey, that's life. deal with it. truth hurts and life isn't easy as you think.

p/s: anyone can catch your eye, but it takes someone special to catch your heart =)

suka-suka

2011-03-10T01:43:00.006+08:00

okayh, dah lama tangguh, kasihan readers blog ni.

walaupun maybe aku perasan sorang2 kot la ada orang follow or

stalk senyap2. tapi memang takde hal punya. nak baca, sukahati.

nak follow sukahati. nak bahan pon suka hati.

*POM*

its a hectic week for me, tests and assignments. classes lagi la semak.

manjang penuh, tapi aku je asyik hilang. Lrm due date dah dekat. final pon dah dekat.

aku tak insaf2 lagi. ponteng tak hengat dunia. walaupun setiap minggu aku cam nyesal gila tak gi kelas. tapi tu la, dah tua-tua ni asyik sakit. aku sendiri pon muak dah makan ubat. panadol macam mentos. ponstan macam asam, makan pon takde effect. risau ade, cuak ade. doktor pon smpai dok ingat aku dok faking sakit. nasib tak gaduh je kat Pusat kesihat. nak tuduh beragak la. orang dok sakit. panas aku. ikut hati nak mmg dah lama doktor tu yang kena.

*POM*

oh btw, bnyk gila gmbar nak post tapi tak sempat. tunggu yeah.? =p

p/s: kalau tak suka, senyap2 sudah okayh.

dear bloggy.

2011-03-02T21:06:00.000+08:00

sorry saya lama tinggalkan awak terbiar.
kalau ikut hukum, dah boleh jatuh talaq.

takpe. saya janji saya akan slalu belai
awak okayh?

muahx8 =)

Customer service and tech support

2010-08-08T18:26:00.001+08:00

Tech support for a wireless phone company received a call from an irate lady who could not understand why she would be billed for "airtime." Tech support explained to her it was because she had exceeded the minutes in her plan, and after that she is charged by the minute. She was still irate. Finally, she asked why she thought she should not be charged for airtime. Her reply, "I wasn't even on an airplane last month!"

An exasperated woman called a tech support help desk saying she couldn't turn on her new computer.
After ensuring the computer was plugged in, the technician asked her what happened when she pushed the power button. Her response, "I pushed it over and over again and nothing happens."

After a brief interrogation, the tech support rep discovered that the woman thought the mouse was a "foot pedal" similar to the one she used to power her sewing machine.

A call centre operator for electricity company, once had a woman call to ask if they could turn off the power to her house because she was now at work and had realised she'd left the curling iron on.

An extremely disappointed woman rang the online department store from which she had purchased a cat scratching post. In the catalogue, the product is pictured with two little kittens climbing on it. The customer's complaint? That the product had been delivered but the two cats weren't inside the box!! The advisor explained politely that the picture was for illustration purposes only and that there was no way that they could send live animals via a parcel delivery service, but the customer continued to rant at him, threatening to report the complaint to Trading Standards, the press, her solicitors etc etc.

Customer (to Phone company) : I've been calling 700-1000 for two days and can't get through. Can you help?
Operator: Where did you get that number, sir?
Customer: It's on the door of the business.
Operator: Sir, those are the hours that the business is open.

Caller: I deleted a file from my PC last week and I just realized that I need it. So, if I turn my system clock back two weeks will I get my file back again?

A customer rings an airline company and asks the consultant "for a booking from here to Sydney return."
The consultant asks: "Where are you calling from ?"
Customer: "My kitchen."

Consultant answers call with airline greeting.
Caller, not listening, "Yes, could I have a taxi?"
Consultant advises, "You have called _____ Airlines."
Caller, "I'm at this address..."
Consultant, "I'm sorry sir. But you have called _____ Airlines. I'm afraid you must have dialed the wrong number."
Caller, "Yes,yes, how long will the taxi be, I'm in a hurry" and repeats his address.
Consultant, "We'll send a plane for you. It will be about 15 minutes."
Caller, "Thanks mate, I'll be out the front. And hurry!"

of suka suka and being sarcastic. =)

2010-06-10T06:47:00.002+08:00

I was lepak-ing the other day with my old friend,
who is or to be exact used to be my apprentice,
my victim of abuse =p,( i have a very odd way to show affection )
and a person whom i believe to have the potential to shine.
she's quite a character.

nonetheless, that is not the story. baru mukaddimah je ^_^. i came across
this piece of writing made by a close person when i was doing my weekend routine,
which is blog-hopping. quite interesting this post was when i first read.

it was published like this:

"i am the same person no matter how i live my life.
deep inside, i am still me.
with that same principle, the same believes, the same flaws.
the same face with the same attitude.
but maybe i kinda adapt myself in my new surrounding.
that's called growing up. not changing.
so don't judge dear old friends."

sekilas pandang, it looks like a normal emo-post which most girls of
her age would published. as a matter of fact, most girls would face
the same problem as her, which are conformity, acceptance, identity crises and peer pressure.

This girl who wrote this post definitely are having issues with her friends.
torn into different sides and group of friends.

clearly she was trying to restore their friendship in a sense that she was assuring that she is still a same person regardless of what had happened between them and she has not changed but only growing up.

let's face it. the fact is that people change each and every second.
even in the growing up process you'll change. look at your physical attributes,
your mental capacity and also the knowledge that you've gained.

i do not want to argue on the fact that "i am still me" because yes, you're the same person, with the same name. but attitude wise, you are not the same. physical wise, you are not the same, mentally wise, you are not the same.

growing up means you'll need to take full responsibilities of your actions. and blaming others or other things won't help. in fact it would only make you look stupid and immature.

a wise person once told me " it is not your fault when people judge u badly, but it is your fault when you give them reasons to judge you that way "

therefore, I rest my case.

p/s : it's cynical, sarcastic and mean. but if you looked from the different perspective, you'll see a good advice. read between the lines. =)

Sadaani Khalas (Believe me once and for all)

2010-05-19T06:20:00.001+08:00

lyric [translation]

Sadaani khalas,
Believe me, that's it.
Men bein el nas,
From amongst all people,
Habeitak wekhtartak leya.
I have loved you and have chosen you for myself.

Tool mana wayak,
As long as I am with you,
Odami malak.
There is an angel in front me
Khaleitni ma ghamaatsh einaya.
You have made me never shut my eyes.

Chorus 1:
Allah... ya salam.
Oh god.. wow!
Fe eneik ahla kalam.
In your eyes, I found the most beautiful words.

Chorus 2:
Arrab menni shwaya shwaya.
Come closer little by little.
Albi we albak sawa yetlao.
So my heart and yours can find each other.
El donia enta maletha alaya.
You have filled my world.
Da el hob elli mahadesh daao.
This is the love nobody has ever tasted.

Arrab menni shwaya shwaya.
Come closer little by little.
Add mateqdar arab tani.
As much as you can, come closer.
El donia enta maletha alaya.
You have filled my world.
We kaeini makhlooq ala shani.
And it's like you were created just for me.

Ya araa el nas,
Oh most kind person,
Fe eneik ehsas.
There is affection in your eyes.
Be yakhodni maa bansa el donia.
When I see them, I forget the world.
Domini be edeik,
Embrace me with your arms,
Law ghali aleik.
If I am precious to you.
Madayash yareit wala sania.
Don't waste time, not even a second.

(Chorus 1)

(Chorus 2)

Habibi, habibi.
My darling, my darling.
Ana mehtaglak tefdal ganbi.
I need you to stay next to me.
Ah habibi,
Oh darling,
Add ma teqdar, arrab tani.
As much as possible, come closer.

p/s i miss you dear. =|

of thomas cup and joke.

2010-05-19T04:53:00.002+08:00

John: I wanna send lighters to our badminton squad.

Jack: lighter as in lighter you used to light up ciggies?

John: Yup.

Jack: err.okay. but why lighter?

John: because they lost all their matches.

dang~

=)

2010-05-19T04:35:00.003+08:00

Selamat malam chenta.

Bulan menjadi saksi,
bahwa kau si ratu hati.

Dan bila hati ini hanya untukmu.

Bintang dilangit bercahaya,
dalam senyumanmu ku bahagia.

Selamat malam chenta.

A lover's tale.

2010-05-02T20:22:00.003+08:00

The sun dims into twilight,
The moon beams simmer brightly.

I stand still as the earth moves around me,
The heart beats faster as my breath goes deeper.

Is it the call of love?
My love, is it the call of love?

The sun dims into twilight,
The moon beams simmer brightly.

Savour these beauteous moments,
When in this world everything changes.

Our dreams blend into the realms of reality,
has bound us in its silken threads.

Let this season of love remain eternal,
let us meet through lives and lives like today.

Is it the call of love?
My love, is it the call of love?

The sun dims into twilight,
The moon beams simmer brightly.

The colours of our souls has melted into one,
I can't say which of mine is yours and which of yours is mine.

It's the thirst of the ocean,
It’s the dream of the night.

The hearts of the flames have been set afire,
The passion for your love are burning in desire.

Is it the call of love?
My love, is it the call of love?

The sun dims into twilight,
The moon beams simmer brightly.

faces of mine.

2010-03-31T06:07:00.002+08:00

too many faces to tell, and yet how the beautiful mind works
to memorize them. people change and their faces too.
but there's always a thing that won't change.

it is me being myself and my stoned eyes. =)
cheers peeps. Good luck for the finals.

p/s: I mish my old self, but ain't we all? *smiles*

memories =)

2010-02-23T08:46:00.003+08:00

I was re-arranging my files in my lappy
the other day and i stumbled upon old pics.
wahaha. chomels giler. =p

*form 5*

*form3*

*re-union dinner 2007*

*vc cup 2007*

*uitm sedekad 2008*

p/s; masih tgh study for land law test kejap lagi. haishh..
anyway, selamat menyambut maulidur rasul =)

♥ You ♥

2010-02-19T02:20:00.003+08:00

I didn't know I could love again,
because of the past; because of the pain.
When i finally make it through,
from the doors of heaven God sent me you.

Feelings that once were hidden,
Are now expressed to you.
Days that once were stormy,
Are now the brightest blue.

You walk into a room,
and I know you have arrived;
my heart skips a beat when
you walk up to my side.

My heart is complete now,
With the love that we share.
And our love grows more,
Beautifully each day.

alexhakim - february 19 at 1:43 a.m.

p/s; I'm taken. by her =)

sunrise at broga hill

2010-02-19T01:50:00.003+08:00

well peeps, i went hiking the other day
with my siblings and my brother in law.

it was ohsome! anyway,its better to let the pictures
do the talking i guess =)

*sequence of sunrise*

*hiking crews*

[from left: my brother, myself, my sister & brother in-law]

*the sceneries*

[middle earth]

[fellowship of the ring]

seriously, this place reminds me of the movie called lord of the ring.
quite similar except there's no hobbits around broga lah. haha.
anyway,it was again, an ohsome! trip. =)

p/s; iz a.k.a achak tahir nak join pegi hiking next time, anyone else?

update update.

2010-02-16T00:30:00.002+08:00

basically, this is the sumarry for the past few weeks.
i can't find the right word for it, so let the pictures and videos
do the talking eh.? =)

1st event - session karok ngn ma =p

*sempat lagi senyum time nyanyi*

*sape2 nak jadi member fan club, bole register. haha*

2nd event - law and etiquette dinner.

*pimping =)*

*with reen and pedro*

*with the yakuzas* haha

ohkay. I'm done with the update. see you guys soon. ahaks =)
p/s tagline yang melekat dalam kepala. "oh my gucci" - pisau cukur. LOL

=)

2010-02-09T13:26:00.004+08:00

well well, cupid is back baby =)
now as for konon2 love day a.k.a valentine's day
is coming up, here's a tip for those couples
who have been struggling with their relationship.

Keyword: Predictability

If asking couples the factors involved in the demise of their relationship, one of the common responses is that everything in the relationship is so predictable.
When rebuilding a relationship,do not be afraid of letting go of boredom. if your mate spends hours in the garden trying to make things look perfect, surprise them with a new flowering plant, and then help to plant it. When taking a walk with your mate, stop and give them a soft kiss, say, "I love you," and then keep walking. Take some chances and do the unexpected. spice up, try new things. venture into new opening and possibilities.(in a good way)

always remember, there's NO losing in trying. =)

p/s 14/2 xyah celebrate lah. merepek je. if you really love your partner,
no need to celebrate a day only. you guys should celebrate everyday *smiles*

Summary for January

2010-02-09T12:55:00.003+08:00

1st - 4th week of january;

pressure have been amounting these past few
weeks due to the dysfunctional registration system,

I had to go several times to the office to do my
registration manually. didn't get philosophy for
my elective subject but instead, got into soga class.
WOW! (imitating cik suria's expression) haha.

so I've heard that soga is quite hard.but after a while,
I find it very interesting. =)

Oh, I've managed to do both of my module, for part1 & part3.
terasa agak tua jugak melepak dengan adik2 junior. then got my
"beloved" lecturer whom she had failed me earlier as the facilitator.
hahaha. maluu siot.

then the following week buat module for part3. yang ni mmg steam.
faci masuk air dan melepak skali kat port. tak bley blah.

anyway, etiquette dinner is coming up. everyone seems busy picking
up dresses n stuff. oh pressure. x suka pakai smart2 neyh. x rock lah. =pp

so i guess thats all for january.

will post few pictures n vids. *smiles*

p/s bnyak sgt orang tanya lately. tak taw nak jawab ape. hehe.
btw, i.l.y 1-14-14-5 =)

december update.

2009-12-30T19:38:00.002+08:00

2010 is coming soon. as usual,
here's some of december 2009 review.

first event - my sister's wedding (5/12)

it was awesome. tho i managed to screw things up
by becoming an emcee. haha. i totally forgot to prepare my script.

anyways. it was awesome. tapi tiring. like hell

second event - cousin's wedding (12/12)

again wedding. what does it mean? food.
free food peeps. n am getting fat..aiyayaya.

third event - sister's wedding *groom side* (19/12)
makan makan makan. plus travelling to kedah.
mengimbau memory. haha. s.p pulak tu.

semua kedai best pegi visit. hahahah.

fourt event. another cousin's wedding. in kelantan (26/12)

lepas wedding. pusing punya pusing. makan lagi.
*mee celup.*

fifth event. golfing. haha (30/12)

*vain* as usual.

anyway. back to 2010,
azam baru? blajar bersungguh- sungguh.
hahaha.

p/s. missing (1.14.14.5) =)

Passion.

2009-11-08T03:58:00.002+08:00

now, a week ago, i was still struggling.
trying to find the passion, the pace to study.

am really grateful that everything are falling into pieces;
in a good way of course, but sadly, still got issues with the pace.

though sometimes taking matters in a baby steps is a good thing,
study on the hand, doesn't work that way especially when your paper
is approximately in 36 hours time and there's lots of topics to cover up.

maybe this time around, my photographic memory can help me out;
though i really doubt it because my dysfunctional brain kept thinking about
other things. or maybe people to be precise.

hahahaha. now i feel lame. trying to prove a point - still.

p/s. anybody's up sushi?

how hard can it be?

2009-10-26T22:44:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the very ever-late post.
been a while,been busy doing..nothing.

Just when i started to realize that I am human
after all, that i do have feelings and that the feelings started to grow
and am very fond of the other person,

reality kicks in. hard. now am a bit devastated. or a bit
frustrated. i don't know actually. mixed feelings along the way.
This is what happened when you've been so indecisive.

Sorry alex hakim khalip, you just missed the freaking boat.
too bad eh?

p/s finals coming up, and i need someone to teach me on MLS II. God damn-it.

Lost.

2009-09-03T06:19:00.002+08:00

I feel a bit lost lately.
not a bit, maybe more.

Neither do i have the appetite
to study nor the hunger for success.

I do not feel the spark,
the adrenelines' rush that i used
to have, and
i hate when it happens because
i know that all these things are important.

Things used to be easy, like a knife cutting thru a butter.
but now, only God knows how shitty
my life is.

I LOST my inspiration,
and I LOST my soul.

What more can i ask?

Emphasise positive personal change

2009-08-26T05:59:00.000+08:00

Malaysian Syariah authorities should reconsider the law on consuming alcohol, which is described in the Quran in the mildest language of prohibition.

ON July 20, the Pahang Syariah High Court sentenced part-time model Kartika Sari Dewi Shukarnor, 32, to a RM5,000 fine and six lashes of the rotan for drinking beer.

No doubt the court has the jurisdiction to impose such a sentence as provided by the law.

Some have questioned the appropriateness of the sentence of whipping given that the court has discretion to impose a mixture of fine, imprisonment and binding Kartika over for good behaviour for a certain period, or just admonish her.

Others have questioned the appropriateness based on the legitimate argument that the Syariah holds Muslims responsible for their actions that result in negative opinions of Islam.

A news item like this certainly presents Islam and Malaysia negatively on the international stage.

But I would urge the Malaysian Syariah authorities to seriously reconsider the Syariah basis of this law on the following Syariah grounds:

Neither the Quran nor the Hadith invokes a penalty for alcohol consumption. The sin of consuming alcohol is described in the Quran in the mildest language of prohibition.

When it comes to dietary laws, the Quran commands the believers in Sura 5:3: “forbidden (hurrimat) to you is the dead animal, loose blood, and the flesh of the pig”.

The 90th verse of the same Sura cautions the believers that “wine, gambling, etc, are an impurity so avoid them (fa-jtanibuh)”.

Some legal scholars suggest that the divine command ijtinab, to avoid something, is milder language than tahrim, prohibition.

A Muslim consuming a glass of wine with a pork chop commits a more serious offence in eating pork; yet as there is no Quran or Hadith penalty for consuming pork, there is also none for alcohol consumption.

The question then is how did the penalty for alcohol consumption come about?

It occurred during the time of the second Caliph Umar b. al-Khattab. There was a companion of the Prophet (sahabi) who had fought on the Prophet’s side in his battles.

A heavy drinker, he would walk the streets of Madina drunk at night and loudly shout scandalous things about people. The inhabitants of Madina complained, and Umar formed a committee to decide what to do.

Imam Ali, based on the man having committed slander, suggested the penalty for slander, whose maximum penalty is 80 lashes.

Since that time, this has been considered the maximum penalty for alcohol consumption, based on utilising the Syariah concept of ta`zir (deterrence).

I disagree with this being the mandatory sentence for the offence of wine consumption, because it is the maximum sentence for another, separate offence – slander – albeit committed under the influence of alcohol.

Had the man just fallen on the street in a stupor and suffered a terrible hangover without having hurt anyone, no punishment would have been established.

Had cars existed then and had he run his car over some pedestrians and killed them, should we invoke ta`zir now and have a penalty for alcohol consumption equal to that of accidental manslaughter?

There are additional arguments we can marshal from the Quran and Hadith. The Quran repeatedly urges Muslims to forgive those who wrong them, even for slander and manslaughter!

When the Prophet Mohamed’s wife Aisha was wrongly accused of having committed adultery, her father Abu Bakr sought to have the penalty of libel meted against one of his employees who had slandered her.

God then revealed verse 24:22, urging the believers to pardon and forgive those who have wronged them, so that God would forgive them their own sins.

But I see no evidence that Kartika wronged anybody after drinking beer.

Verse 4:92 gives the penalty for a Muslim accidentally killing another as freeing a slave and paying compensation to the victim’s family – unless the family forgoes compensation and forgives the offender.

And if the defendant can’t afford to pay, then he should fast for two consecutive months. Accidental homicide is a much greater sin than alcohol consumption; yet the Quran suggests that the victim’s family would do well to forgive the offender, and the penalty here is not jail time or corporal punishment, but a two-month fast.

The Quranic and Prophetic teachings are about forgiveness, compassion and positive personal transformation. Sura 48:29 describes Prophet Mohamed’s companions as “firm against unbelievers and compassionate to themselves”, and this is what I urge the Malaysian authorities to exemplify: show compassion to Kartika and forgive her.

But if the Pahang Syariah court insists on establishing a penalty for the mere consumption of alcohol, why not replace the current law – a maximum penalty of a RM5,000 fine and six lashes of the rotan – with spending RM5,000 on feeding the poor and fasting for six days?

Wouldn’t that be more in keeping with the letter and spirit of the Quran and the Prophetic Sunnah?

Were this the case, I have a hunch that many Malaysians who imbibe may voluntarily mete such a “penalty” on themselves – to the benefit of the poor, to the benefit of their own spiritual progress and standing before God on Judgment Day, and to the benefit of the Malaysian Syariah Court’s, Islam’s and Malaysia’s image on the international stage.

> Imam Feisal Abdul Rauf is the Chairman of the Cordoba Initiative, an international organisation devoted to improving West-Muslim world relations, and author of “Islam, A Sacred Law, What Every Muslim Should know about the Shariah”.

p/s this is a reminder to all.

salam ramadhan dari alexhakim.

tribute to someone.

2009-08-12T20:49:00.002+08:00

There's this girl i knew once,
she's beautiful; mind and soul.
I was hoping to get to know her,
but i guess God have planned for something better.

Nonetheless; if i could turn back time,
i would be happy to know her more; in and out.
Cause' i saw potential,
and i saw all the good things in her,
that i would love to hear.

dedicated to : 2007-217-572

p/s; moving forward, one step at a time.

Random

2009-07-25T20:50:00.001+08:00

*If a guy tells you that he’s not ready for a relationship, take his word for it.

Believe it or not, men really hate to disappoint women. So if he’s “gotten up the guts to actually cross the threshold and tell you that he’s not ready for a relationship, he means business,” says Oikle. There could be a variety of explanations for his antirelationship position (he has commitment issues, he wants to hook up with other people, he doesn’t see you as girlfriend material), but in the end, the result is the same: He’s doesn’t desire to be your boyfriend. End of story.

And no, he won’t change his mind when he gets to know you a little better. “Once a guy decides how he sees a girl in his life, it’s hard to break out of that thinking,” says Coleman. Warning: If you stick around after he’s told you this, he will likely take it as a sign that you’re cool with the casual, nonexclusive nature of your relationship. So make sure you are.

soure ; cosmopolitan mag.

down.

2009-07-11T07:03:00.002+08:00

"when you're down, when you need someone, I'll be there."

this is effing sweet.
especially when you promise it to someone special.

but i wonder,

If I'm down,or lost, or in need of someone,
who will be there for me?

p/s this is not fun.
*minus friends n family, without you guys, I'll die weyh.

life.

2009-07-09T22:11:00.002+08:00

disappointed.
that's for sure.

well i hope you're happy
with it.

thank you!

errr..

2009-07-04T05:27:00.002+08:00

anyone.

wanna trade your life with mine?

am i fat?

2009-07-02T03:25:00.003+08:00

to ily.
this is a freakin' rare occasion.
never like to show my photos,
but since u didn't believe me just now,
i kene tunjuk kan?..

.:: prepare untuk gelak peeps ::.

*gambar after spm. pegi holiday with friends kat genting*

*yang ni gler gemuks. right before masuk uitm. i blame mcd for this sbb time keje is also time makan at mcd. est weight - 95 kg*

*before masuk third sem for asasi. time ni gambar kluar cleo. =p*

*ni right before masuk sem satu degree. tgh bercuti di pd*

*this is the newest picture. skrang my weight constantly changing. mcm recession.
tapi tak lari between 75-80.*

so, puas hati u ily?

*tips to lose weight.
ni routine i. but there's always execeptions.

heavy breakfast - light lunch/fruits - light dinner - light supper/fruits
exercise at least 10 minutes a day.
swimming.

that's all. i eat what i want and no dieting.
ahaks =p

changes in life.

2009-06-04T06:07:00.002+08:00

seasons change,
from summer to winter.

people change,
from bad to better.

the world change,
from good to greater.

in the end,
there's only one thing left unchanged.
which is my heart - and the fact that
it won't stop loving you.

all this while, I've been trying to
put these feelings into words.

but i can't.

the only thing i can do is thinking
about you. =)

p/s. I'm bored. let's lepak jom

come what may,

2009-05-28T05:29:00.002+08:00

as usual, football,
there's only two outcomes.
is either you win or you lose.

in my case, my favorite team lost.
bloody hell.

and, mcm biasa juga, kalah betting.
i have to walk around,without my man u shirt.
dah la hujan. mmg kene kaw nye lah tadi.
panas je hati ni..

takpe barca. takpe.
laen hari team wa titik lu.

p/s terasa nak demam. hujan yang sejuk dan hati yang tengah panas..
terbaikkkkkkkkkkkkk =|

even kalah pon,
I'm proud to say that I'm a man u fan.
till i die, yeah you heard me. till i die
*pffffft*

holidayyy

2009-05-22T15:29:00.002+08:00

holiday.
its like every other day for me.

a bit boring, but i'm glad.
at least i got un-utilize time to
do things.

.reading
.poetry
.cooking

a bit gayish i must say, but these things
have kept me away from my troubled heart.

p/s Just turned 19 the other day..hahaha.still young what.. =p

birthday parttyyy

2009-05-22T15:04:00.004+08:00

here some of the pictures from my surprise parttyy =)
thanks you guys

*shaf eating as usual*

*vanesh*

*fuz*

*the girls*

*birthday boy makin' his speech*

*cake*

*bbq*

*the whole crowd*

Good place,great food and awesome friends.
I love you guys. xoxo

May 13

2009-05-15T01:24:00.002+08:00

no more riots for me,
instead,Karl n the gang gave me a surprise birthday party!

good place,great food and awesome people.
what more can i ask?

Thank God for giving me these wonderful friends.
won't trade them with anything, i swear =)

p/s, i'll upload the pictures later.

of constitutional law and bed.

2009-05-08T05:56:00.001+08:00

5.36 in the morning.
with three days to go.

shit.
i did not start reading anything yet!

tempting how my bed is.
i can't get enough of you.
=(

May

2009-04-15T15:40:00.000+08:00

May

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children.Hardworking. High spirited.

how far?

2009-04-13T09:17:00.003+08:00

how far would u go?
or what would u do?

to save someone/something
that is/are special to u?

would u do anything?
would u steal?
would u kill?
would u die for it?

for me,
i would sell my soul.

Heart.

2009-03-28T02:53:00.003+08:00

They said that the heart has reasons that reason itself don't understand.

I believed that.

Been ages since i last cried.

8 years ago..when my brother died.

I cried. like hell.

Never thought that i cried again.

Never thought that i still have the heart.

The feelings.

But God knows well.

There's still a soft side inside me.

The one that being hide and locked.

Do not want it to be discovered.

Do not want be sad.

But somehow.

It touches me just now.

And i cried.

I cried again.

Like hell.

Xtahan lah

2009-02-23T23:59:00.001+08:00

terbaik lah test MLS tadi...

saya blank sepanjang test...

ape yang baca tidak keluar...

menjadi satu persoalan..

ape yang saya bace sebenarnye?????

.:: Into the night ::.

2009-02-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

I could search the entire world,
I could swim the entire ocean,
I could walk the entire continent.

And yet, i could not find it.

The world lost its sparks,
The food lost its taste,
And I,

I lost my heart.

______________________________________

I shall let you go thief,
for I could never catch you.

Go and run O' thief,
And find whatever you need.

It is not me that you seek,
And it is not in me that you shall find happiness.

Go and run O' thief,
And never look back at me.

Don't worry bout my heart that you've break,
for it would healed by itself when sadness fades away.

untitled

2009-02-17T15:52:00.001+08:00

2 test dah abes.

6 more to go.

haisyy!..

I can do this =|

v-day

2009-02-15T04:29:00.002+08:00

v-day is freaking boring. Period!

p/s; berhati-hati lah couple2 diluar sana..tgh banyak operasi nih.

devil's within

2009-02-13T02:28:00.002+08:00

for the past few weeks,
anger and hatred lingers
around my heart.

cursed that heart o' mine,
for it brings nothing but misery to all.

p/s alex says sorry to all.

What's wrong with me.

2009-02-11T19:29:00.001+08:00

Letih,
penat,

minggu yang penuh dugaan.

Ya Tuhan,

tunjukkanlah jalan yang terbaik untuk
hamba mu ini. =|

disclaimer.

2009-02-04T22:06:00.003+08:00

I'm writing my blog in general.
and i do promote critical thinking.
everyone who read my blog are
encourage to make their own conclusion.
however,i do NOT support assumption.
because when you guys assume, u just made an ASS out
of U and ME understood?

Don't miss understood me, this is not an Apologizing statements.
I don't think it is necessary.Plus, my previous post was not a defamatory one,
and I'm not liable for everything.

p/s sorry is a big word and i ain't giving it easily.
but i do feel sorry for the people who can't differentiate between general
and private statements.

hope.

2009-01-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

How I wish I could know who I am,
and what it is in this world that I seek.

stolen.

2009-01-28T14:35:00.001+08:00

and guess what?

its missing again.

where the hell could it be?

the man who has a brain smaller than his "little friend"

2009-01-24T15:31:00.006+08:00

first and foremost.
after 37 post,this time (and hope it would be the last)
i shall write in anger..
so,if u stumble upon foul language and stuffs,
pardon me..but i can't help it at the moment.

to the guy who drove a car made by a Malaysian manufacturer;

dear ayam,

for the first time in my life,i really feel that i want to chop somebody's heads off.
for someone of your height,believe me, it does not suit nor reflect your mind capacity. but yeah,
i guess u can blame the gravity because all the blood that should go to your brain and your
upper head have gone to the "other" head..so tell me now,u still want to go and talk itik
about your love life where it is sweet because u don't put any expectation? hey lembu,
as far as we all know, u have been counting days,waiting for your girlfriend. I'm sure that a
man like u, u have things that need to be fulfilled and to be satisfied.. I bet by the time this post is being published, u have already got what u want. heh.

sometimes it makes me wonder. are u really that "slow type of learner" or u just plain
stupid. bloody imbecile. simple instruction also u can't follow. i just hope that if u planned to ruin
yourself with your stupidity, make sure I'm out of it.and yeah. right now, i seriously have lost faith and respect towards u. and i swear to God, it will be hard for u to earn them back.

anyway,i shall stop now cause i don't want to add more sins on my stockpile.i know, I'm not that good either. but at least, i did not messed up other people's lives itik.
plus,it would be a defamatory statement if I accidentally spill or write that ayam's name.

In conclusion, i just hope that someday you'll change. stop being an asshole and plan your live well cause if u failed to plan, then u planned to fail.

p/s save your sorry words, i don't want to hear it.

*post ini ditapis untuk tontonan umum.. clasifikasi pembaca (u)

relationship, people and expectation..

2009-01-11T07:39:00.005+08:00

now, for God sake and the love of heaven,
I just want to make a few rebuttals regarding
a couple of statements that i have read recently..
Just for a reality check..

simple equation of reality.

people = expectation
relationship = people + expectation
relationship = (expectation + expectation)
thus, relationship = expectation(2)
* the = sign means have
* the (2) sign means greater

statement for rebuttals :-

*relationship is more pure and sincere if you don't put expectation*

how on the earth can u achieve this? how can a person seriously believe
that he/she can put no expectation when having a relationship?
even in God to human relationship still have expectation. i.e
when a person worshiped his/her God, he/she expects the prayer
would be accepted etc etc..So, does this means that there is other relationship
that is more pure than the God to human relationship? and another thing, if there's
no expectation in the relationship,how does it ends? and what's the relationship's goal? will
it ends with marriage?also how to improve the relationship when its goal-less?
thus,in my point of view an expectation-less relationship would be use-less relationship.

well,i got more..but i guess i'll write it off later..
so,any poi people?
by the way,if anyone feel offended with this post,
know this,i don't give a **** =)

p/s :- sweet things are not good to your health,it promote obesity and other diseases.
now,if you are fat and you don't know why? think again..it must be all the cheesy and
sweet statement by your bf..hahahaha

new year's resolution.

2009-01-04T03:30:00.004+08:00

everyone been asking what's my new year's resolution.
well i guess if i say it out loud,it would be more like a statement
rather then a resolution. kan?

don't worry, I'll share nonetheless. =)

firstly, i want to focus more on my studies..no more playing around.
besides, I'm old already =p

secondly, I'm trying t0 cut down my bad habit(s)

lastly, trying to be a good son,a good brother, a good boyfriend(if i have a gf this year),
a good student, a good citizen and also a good muslim.

(note; all things are equally important =p)

ohhh, another thing, I'm planning to go green by riding a bicycle in the campus..
hopefully,i larat to fulfill that thing =)

anyway,best wishes to all my friends..hope 2009 will bring us more happiness than before.

lots of love

alex hakim *wink*

bedtime stories

2008-12-31T21:54:00.003+08:00

I'm back at home..
trying to figure out things.

while the rest of the world are in the celebration mood
for new year,let us not forget what happened in Palestine.
women,children, senior citizens are being killed easily
by the Jews.

and what can the rest of the world do? talking talking and talking..
and then celebrate new year like nothing happen..
its a sad world today, to see the value of mankind, peace and harmony
are not being cherished. another excused for not helping the Palestinian people
is because of the world economic downfall..

bloody hell..what a shitty excused..
even when the world economy at its peak, none of the great countries
help.and the saddest part of it, the O.I.C did not do anything.
such a shame. and such a waste.

anyway,to all my friends out there, lets give a moment
for us to think,or at least pray if u can't think, so that one day,
those bunch of corrupted Islamic leaders of ours could awake
from their lullaby and starts making actions and solutions
rather than sitting and talking crap.

p/s today's world sucks..big time..

The Confusion of the Scholars by Yahiya Emerick

2008-12-20T06:18:00.001+08:00

Have you ever been confronted with such stupidity that you were speechless? It happens all the time and in all spheres of life. The person driving ahead of you can't make up their mind whether to turn left, right, stop, go or travel ahead. The teenager is wearing a full "uniform" of baggy pants, shaved head, ear-ring and gold chains and exclaims he's being "unique." Or my favorite example is that of a man at an auto auction who yelled out "three hundred" when the auctioneer just lowered the price to fifty. Stupidity is sometimes an art form and many people spend a lifetime perfecting it.
Usually, the strange actions and behavior of others have little immediate impact on our lives. It often takes a long time for the stupid actions of some to build up to a point where the rest of us suffer. Take for instance the problem of the United Nations. Two-faced people will stand up and tell us that it's the forum for the world and that it's committed to world peace, conflict resolution, justice, etc... But after almost fifty years of bungling, this front for Western, secular domination has prolonged more wars than it solved.
The UN's budget is riddled with corruption and inefficiency and UN headed military missions come with more feebleness, bad action and/or inaction than anything else. (Think Bosnia, Somalia, Korea, Rwanda, etc...) Twenty years ago it didn't matter as the two superpowers kept the world on a tight leash. But now that one superpower is gone, the UN's stupidity and confusion is unable to keep the last superpower in check, let alone tin-pot dictators. The prolonged weakness now makes the world more dangerous.
What about Muslims? Are there any incredibly stupid actions which have built up to a dangerous level. Of course! Of the many to choose from, which one am I going to pick on today? Yep, you guessed it. I'm going to point out how some (not all) "scholars" have steered us wrong and taken us away from the path of Islam.
You often hear the terms, Shaykh, Scholar, 'Alim, 'Ulema, Maulana, Mullah, Allamah, Imam, etc... There are so many people with these titles in front of their names that it's dizzying. You know how so many Muslims are into the whole " Doctor" thing? Seeking status by having everyone call them Doctor? Well, the whole scholar thing is there too and it's much older than the Western oriented " Doctor" worship. (Sometimes you see people writing their names as " Dr. Shaykh whatever." Now that's funny.
Here's the problem I see. When I first became a Muslim, I read so many books that extolled the wondrous virtues of the Islamic system. That is the system that I love. And one of the things that was mentioned over and over was that there was no clergy in Islam. No "Holy" men or intermediaries between Allah and people. Then I was introduced into the whole culture of "Scholars." That's where my alarm bells started to ring.
Of course, I have nothing against a person acquiring a lot of knowledge, whether it's for Islamic learning or worldly benefit. I have nothing against the concept of the scholar, the doctor, the engineer, etc... I do have a problem if some people use those terms as a cover for their arrogance and mistakes and then it affects me in a negative way, either directly or indirectly.
For example, as you well know, there are many competing groups of Muslims today in the ideological wars. There are the Saudi-funded Salafies, the Iranian funded Mullahs, the Egyptian/Syrian Brotherhood groups, the Tablighi Jamaati people, the mysterious Hizb at Tahreer, the Jamati Islami groups, the African American Muslim groups, the secularist Indo-Pak groups and about twenty others. Each group has its own scholars who "prove" to the faithful that the other groups are inferior. These same "scholars" often issue "Fatwas" or religious verdicts about items of concern for individual members and life goes on in the happy dreamland of exclusive truth.
These groups often issue contradictory Fatwas and rarely ever work together on anything. How many of you have been to a gathering of one of these or other groups where the "big scholar" is treated like a celebrity? ell-wishers and sycophants fawning all over him. (It's always a "Him." What's the average, concerned Muslim suppossed to think when the "scholars" are often so full of pride and arrogance that they are repulsive? The heirarchy involved in the "scholar" system in amazing! The big Maulanas are usually the fattest. The medium Maulanas have shorter beards and smaller bellies, while the Maulana wanna-bees are thin and stand off in the fringes of the great procession. (Don't get angry at me for pointing out what everyone knows.)
So where does the stupidness come in? There are several areas to look at and the first is on the issue of who is a "Scholar" or "Shaykh?" Allah is very harsh against the Jews and the Christians for considering their priests and rabbis as people who could make religious judgments without consulting Allah's revelations. The priests made the eating of pork allowed for Christians, with no authority from Allah or from Prophet Jesus, while the rabbis made laws such as a woman could not be in the house during her period and that milk and meat could not be eaten together. In this respect, the people "worshipped" their leaders besides Allah.
Sadly, this is exactly what Muslims have done for the last thousand years. In the early days of Islam, no one went around with austentatious titles, as if they were somehow set apart from the rest of the people. Everyone was usually addressed as brother or sister. No one earned overly glorified titles, either, just because they studied with a Sahabi. The only real special term that I have ever come across which was frequently used by the Prophet to describe others is 'Alim (learned person). And this term was never used in the sense of a "priest" or Holy man. It was just that: a person who is learned.
In Madina, everyone was "learned" to one extent or another. The trader knew how to practice Islam, the housewife knew how to practice Islam and the traveler knew it too. If someone needed to ask a question about Islam that they didn't know, they would go to a friend or neighbor. For really detailed questions, they might consult someone who was known to be a teacher. But they wouldn't fawn all over the teacher nor would the teacher dress or act in such a way as to set him or herself apart from the rest of the believers.
Centuries passed and a funny thing happened. The Islamic world spread in so many different directions and millions of people were becoming Muslims. The common knowledge of Islam was not so common anymore. If a Muslim teacher went to any area where Islamic knowledge was scarce, suddenly, everyone was wanting to be around him. The teacher became special. (Think of Sufi-style Shaykh worship for example.) Fast forward many more centuries. There are millions of Muslims, but few know much about Islam. Teachers have become "holy" men and have such titles as "Shaykh" or "Maulana". They are a special class, or caste, of people who are sought after and revered by people who want to see their "god" in the flesh because the concept of an unseen Creator is to intellectual for most. (Hence, Muslim "Saints!"
So what of the world today? Any person who learns a few dozen ahadith and one or two ajza is calling himself a scholar and making pronouncements about Islam to his flock who knows little. I have met people who knew little about Islam calling themselves Imam, or Shaykh or whatever. Who made them Imam? Who promoted them to the role of a guardian of the Deen? Was it their ignorant followers? Was it by virtue of the fact that they attended some madrasa in another culture? Is it because they're rich? Who knows? All I know is that a real scholar doesn't call himself by a title. He doesn't need it. A real knower of Islam realizes he knows so little and is humble. A title makes him feel uncomfortable. That is a real Muslim leader. But what we have mostly is a clergy class. (Think of that hadith about the Day of Judgment where the pretentious scholar is thrown in Hell.)
And what do the self-appointed scholars say? The stupidity is amazing! (These are all actual Fatwas One scholar will say that chewing gum does not break the fast. Another says that using a fork is haram. A third says that eating McDonald's meat is okay while a fourth says of it, no way. One scholar says human cloning is halal, while another says it's haram. One local scholar in New York says the Sunnah is not important and that most ahadith are fabricated. One in Egypt says that wife-beating is okay if the wife doesn't make an effort to look pretty while another says that mortgages are allowed under duress. (Have you ever heard the Fatwa that living in America is haram? It's there.) Each one of these scholars backs up their arguements with Qur'an and hadith, in a usually twisted way, and then says anyone who does otherwise is a kafir.
The Muslim masses, especially in the West, become very confused. The Blessed Prophet advised us to ask the learned people if a tough question comes up, but we have incredibly un-learned people leading us. I'm sure you are all aware of that hadith where the Prophet said that he doesn't punish a nation until the learned are no more. I'm sure you'll agree that having a lot of "scholars" doesn't preclude learning being gone.
The biggest confusion among the scholars that I've seen is the issue of Bida', or innovation in the Deen. The blessed Prophet once remarked that if anyone brings something new into Islam that it would be rejected. On another occassion, he said, referring to Islam, that every innovation was a wrong and that every wrong will be in the fire. So what have some of our self-proclaimed scholars gone and done? They have included ordinary, everyday things in this definition of Bida'. Even though the Prophet was talking about people changing the beliefs and practices of Islam, our "scholars," in their infinte wisdom, have said that any new invention after the time of the Prophet is also an "innovation" in Islam.
I'm sorry, I have no clue how a new type of saddle, weapon, hairbrush, toothpick or shovel can possibly be called an innovation in the Deen. They have no relation to the Deen. Everyday items for common use are just that, ordinary aspects of life. Of course, these "scholars" apply this rule selectively. They will take a plane when they go to Hajj, instead of riding a horse. They'll use a microphone instead of shouting and they'll print their ideas in books. (Remember, the Blessed Prophet did not use any printed books in his da'wah.) Oh my gosh! Bida'! (Look at page 691 of Reliance of the Traveller and you will read a hadith where the Prophet encourages good innovations. I guess the scholars didn't read that hadith from Sahih Muslim.)
If you think I'm exaggerating, then ponder over the things I've written. Have you seen anything like it? Have you seen pride on the faces of those who claim to be scholars? Which brings me to my last point. Many scholars make Islam seem totally distant and unreachable. How many times have I been sitting in a Masjid or lecture hall and saw some scholar expounding on Islam in an overly-technical way? Why do you think that teenagers and twenty-something Muslims run away from the Masjid? The scholars use too much Arabic terminology and don't explain things in a digestible way. If it's Sunnah to speak to people according to their level, why do our self-appointed leaders speak as if they're addressing a gathering of scholars all the time?
Don't get mad at me. Don't write angry letters about me. I'm telling you the truth. Listen, I understand the Arabic terminology. I understand even the most difficult concepts. Perhaps you do also. But the average Muslim has no clue what Taddabur is or what derivative verbs are or what Tassawaf is or what Usuli Fiqh is. We have ninety percent of our "next generation" one step away from kufr and these "scholars" give lectures that few of the youth, teenagers, converts or average Muslims can understand.
Of course, the older, immigrant Muslims may understand some of the speech or du'at because they grew up in a Muslim country and heard of some of the concepts. But Islamic knowledge is cut off in the generation raised in the West. Don't the "scholars" of Islam realize this? They are acting like they are teaching in Medina when in fact they are in pre-Islamic Mecca. (Do you know how many da'wah workers mess up their da'wah by using excessive Arabic grammar and concepts that American people don't understand?)
I've often lamented that in our Masajid and centers, in many cases, the Imams and "Scholars" have no clue about the needs of their community. They often can't counsel, teach effectively or even show compassion and understanding.

I'm just glad that there are a few good scholars around. I just wish there were more, that they could be in the majority. Then we wouldn't have the confusion and stupidity on such a high level making it difficult for all of us. I know of one Masjid where the Imam carries a gun and has pulled it on Muslims in the Masjid! (How did he get to be an Imam?)
Have you ever heard of a Doctor of Divinity? It's a special degree that Christians usually get before they can become priests or ministers. The candidate must not only study the beliefs and teachings of his or her religion, they must also study: marriage counseling, youth psychology, administration, public speaking, philosophy, comparative religion, management, writing, literature, etc... Why doesn't the board of directors of Masjid X,Y or Z require this from their Imams and resident "scholars"? In many communities I've been in, the Imam, who is almost always a hafiz, is the least respected because all he knows is the Qur'an, he usually has no practical knowledge of anything else whatsoever. The Islamic movement needs real, well-rounded and versatile leaders. We need humble people who don't hide behind titles and enter exclusive "scholar's" clubs.
I don't want anyone to think I'm speaking out against the concept of scholars. I'm not. I repeat, I'm not. I'm speaking out against the laziness in the Ummah which has let our standards for what a scholar should be drop so low that anyone, regardless of intelligence can claim to be a scholar, and then have people follow him. (Do you know how many "Imams" I've seen carrying sticks to beat their students of Qur'an?) I'm also speaking out against those who have acquired such a high level of knowledge but then don't know how to relate it to the people. (Do you know how many big scholars I've seen drunk on their own knowledge while the people around them are lost?)
Some brothers from Saudi Arabia once told me an interesting thing. They said that in thier country, everyone tries to get their children on the doctor track in the schools. If the child isn't smart enough to do that, then they try to direct them to the engineer track. But if they fail in that also, then they send them to the religious schools to be an Imam, and that is the lowest level of respect in society. May Allah help us to reclaim the middle ground and bring the knowledge of the real scholars to the masses who are in desperate need of it. Ameen.

untitled

2008-12-20T03:37:00.004+08:00

oh dear Lord,

how shall i find love,
when my heart is filled with hatred,
burning and feasting upon every single
cells within it.

shall i let this feeling stay,
or should i make it go away,
for it will become a terror,
when i unleashed the hatred and anger.

oh dear Lord,

and when the birds stop to fly,
as the judgment day coming by,
shall i be forgiven for all my sins,
for all the seven deadly sins.

let the wind be my messenger,
and the stars be my witnesses,
as i bow down to your mercy - oh dear Lord,
praying for the strength,
to become a good leader,
for my heart and my desire.

yey!

2008-12-18T17:18:00.001+08:00

i lulus =)

see u guys in shah alam!

.:: Farewell ::.

2008-12-10T01:22:00.004+08:00

So exalted is He in whose hand is the realm of all things, and to Him you will returned.

Tok, I hope and I pray that you'll rest in peace.
Take care, for I shall remember you always.

tagged

2008-12-09T19:37:00.002+08:00

tagged by ily.

Rules:

Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.At the end, you need to choose 5 people to be tagged and list their names.
No tags back.

1-I hate the way you talk to me,

and the way you cut your hair.

2-I hate the way you drive my car,

3-I hate it when you stare.

4-I hate your big dumb boots

and the way you read my mind.

5-I hate you so much it makes me sick,

it even makes me rhyme.

6-I hate the way you're always right,

7-I hate it when you lie.

8-I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry.

9-I hate it when you're not around,

and the fact that you didn't call.

10-But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,

not even close,

not even a little bit,

not even at all.

*seems familiar? hehe..anyway,i took it from the movie " 10 things i hate about you"

and basically,all that is written above is a little known fact about me and the things i hate

when I'm in love with someone.. =)

p/s I love you. =)

.:: Qurban ::.

2008-12-08T09:29:00.006+08:00

Meaning of Qurban;

Qurban is an Islamic act of worship held on the special occasion or day of "celebration" known as Eidul Adha literally meant "Day of Sacrifice" which refers to the animal slaughtering.

The act of Qurban (Sacrifice) is carried out by millions of Muslims every year during Eid Al-Adha. Following the example of The Father of Prophets, Abraham (AS).

The prophet Muhammad PBUH was asked "What is Qurban?", He answered, "It is the sunnah of your father Ibrahim (AS), for every hair of the Qurban you will receive a reward from Allah and for every hair in the wool you will receive a reward". (Hadith - Ibn Maja and Tirmidhi).

The story of Abraham (AS) and his son, Ismael.

The story goes that God had asked Abraham to sacrifice his son whom he loved so much. This obviously saddens the father as was clear when (based on the Qur'an) he had asked his son's opinion of this. Abraham was basically torn between fulfilling the command of God and the love for his son.

Consider if that were to happen today in the modern (or post modern) family - the possible reply would be: are you freaking nuts!

Hence, consider again the reply from the Ismael that was articulated by the latter in the most calmest of tone - of one who is as devoted and dedicated to the Divine as his father: "fulfill it my dear father, insya allah, you will find me as amongst those with patience".

After some time, Abraham brought his son to the ground where he was to fulfill God's command and at the moment he was about to strike his son - the intervention from the Divine came with the appearance of a lamb.

God's command was now clear: You have done profoundly well as to manifest your devotion to the Divine. Hear is the reward - strike the lamb instead (God is truly most merciful and kind towards the believers).

In commemorating this deed of devotion, Muslim sacrifice a lamb/ sheep/ goat / cow on the Eidul Adha from their own wealth in the name of God and the meat is then distributed to the poor, those in need and close relatives.

Allah (swt) says in the Quran: "It is neither their meat nor their blood, that reaches Allah, it is your piety that reaches Him". (Al Qur'an, Ch:22 v:37)

Anyway, Happy Eidul Adha to all and have faith in whatever you do.

(Amen.)

|compilation|

2008-11-28T17:00:00.004+08:00

summary and compilation of story~

________________________________________________________________

First story : summary of vc cup..

Well it didn't turn out as what we have expected..
can't say we are not prepared...our team did great job..
winning n fighting for the spot..however,at very last battle..
we fell..from my observation, the only thing that our teams are lacking
is in the exposure of competitive debate environment..most of them participated
only in the branch house tournament..and its not enough for them..lets look at an analogy ;

last vc,our team, the seniors [azad,fuzail,karl,adam,hilwa,shai n sham] who got
the spot for quarter are regularly participating in tournaments and ivy's..
within 3 semester,we've when to I.C.R.C debate, VC cup, Utp open also shah alam open..
since they have enough knowledge,they can excel and do well..Some may argued that it is
because of the training..but i can assure u that,the training..is enough..all the juniors need is to
have the experienced..when we combined both experience and knowledge..it will become
power..and by that time, the team can surely excel in any tournament..
anyway,very best of luck to them..keep striving for what u have believe in!

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Second story ;

between life and death.

Yesterday, i visited my god-grandfather after a long period of time..
well everyone was busy so we didn't have to visit him..
anyway..i was shocked!..he looks terrible..he can't say a word..only nodding his head
couple of time..i was so sad when i saw him..lying on his bed..then,my mom asked me to read
Yassin for him..so i read passionately and the next thing i know,tears run down my cheek
like a stream..i can't hold myself..i stopped couple of times,wiped off my tears and then continued reading Yassin..I begged at God,at his mercy, please take him with you..I just can't stand looking at him alive but in a great pain..take him God..but again..its not my choice nor my decision
to determine his life and death..

all i can say is that, I'm sad..looking at him also makes me wonder about things in life..about
my life..it gives me these sort of question; "bila nak berubah.." "ape nak jadi.."
and all these question,i don't have the answer at the moment..ghahhh..

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.:: Broken ::.

2008-11-16T04:19:00.003+08:00

Broken hearts, love's deceit,

pieces fall down to my feet.

Broken promises, love's a lie,

puddles form from tears I cry.

Broken dreams, love's illusion,

sorrowed cause of your intrusion.

Broken hope, love's a game,

doesn't last, ends the same.

Broken sleep, love's the cause,

digs at me with sharpened claws.

Broken spirit, love of sorrow,

stolen now is my tomorrow.

Broken life, love is lost,

Broken now and that's the cost.

yeah..broken..but thats life as it should be...with its up and down..
someone told me that when you're climbing the stairs of life, you might get up
another level,or you might fall below..
but when you're at the bottom,the only way to move is to get up..
so yeah..I'm trying...they'd say that we only use 10% of our brains,but i guess,
we'll end up using only 10% or our hearts..anyway, salute!

p/s I'm not koo koo yet ;p

.:: people and things that i'm gonna miss in kedah ::.

2008-11-12T20:43:00.005+08:00

First and foremost,the people that i miss the most :

looking forward to see you guys this weekend.

Next, my sifu =)

And also the adjudication session

Also my "loft"

and how can i forget - Makbul sp (minus hisyam)

yeah, malinja

Kedah debating society

Last but not least, my friends and the prelawrians;

well, I'm sorry if your picture wasn't uploaded here..but i can assured u,that each and everyone
that i know and i befriend with shall be treasured till the day i died..yeah..i promise that..
until our path crossed again,i shall say sayonara and take care..may god bless you guys all

p/s I do miss kedah..the food,the people and the surroundings.

debater..listen up!

2008-11-12T01:30:00.003+08:00

well,VC cup is just around the corner..and since we didn't have our training session,
i need u guys to go to this website and read as many articles as you can..please..
Kedah's name is in your hand..yes your hand dear debaters..so start reading..

see u guys there..happy holidays ;)

http://www.economist.com/debate

p/s don't worry guys,it would be fun..trust me

.:: someone..someday ::.

2008-11-11T02:19:00.004+08:00

someone...

missing someone shouldn't
be measured by how long
you haven't met or spoken
to that someone...

missing someone counts
when your going through
any moment wishing that
your someone is with you...

someday...

someday,when I'm with
that special someone,
I would love to say
"you are my someone baby,
you are the one who i miss the most.
and every moment, i wish you are
experiencing with me too..

perhaps...perhaps...perhaps...

kebingungan , kebosanan atau saja saja..

2008-11-10T03:06:00.004+08:00

Firstly, pardon my page's background..memang saya masih bingung tentang code html dan xml..bukan tak pandai..cuma membaca code yg panjang2 membuat diri terasa bosan..hehe..

it's been three days in k.l. and I'm still trying to adjust my self to home regulations..my freedom seems to be limited at the moment..but its fine i guess since most of my friends still in the exam mode..

it's 3 a.m in the morning..and i can't sleep..and its not good..plus i can't stop thinking about a girl who is far away from me..thinking about a girl that at the moment seems to be out of my grasp.. thinking about a girl that can never be mine..

plain stupid huh?
bet i am one..

a friend of mine said that it takes courage to be a fool..but a fool with courage doesn't solve anything..i need idea..i need a fresh one..

perhaps or maybe someday when this journey of endless misery ends,
it would make me a better man..and a much more wiser than today...

amen~

p/s I'm hungry right now.. ;(

*disclaimer - kebingungan, kebosanan atau saja saja..ini hanya luahan rasa

fallen~

2008-11-08T05:21:00.000+08:00

She's good to me,
she's a sight to see,
but she's ALREADY SOMEBODY'S BABY..

I can make you smile,
if you stay for a while,
but you're ALREADY SOMEBODY'S BABY..

p/s all i need is time...

I can cook..tidak percaya?

2008-10-28T01:32:00.000+08:00

well, what more can i say? I just love to cook and eat..

p/s i love cooking,but that does not mean i'm gay ok ;p

dua dunia

2008-10-24T03:12:00.000+08:00

Duka di kala malam termimpi-mimpi
Rindu di kala siang mencari-cari
Kasih sebenar tidak bertukar tidak sebentar
Walau dipisah lautan direnangi gelora
Dan kadang kala hanyut bagaikan dua arah
Malu sering bersua tapi jarang bersuara
Kenapa bercinta jika kesudahannya pasrah
Kerna bila dilamun indahnya tidak terkata
Tersimpan hasrat tiada siapa yang mengerti
Harapan menggunung sampai penghujung dinanti
Dipegangkan janji tetap ratu di hati
Dengan izin Tuhan kan bersama kapan hari pasti
Sabarlah menanti kesabaran diuji
Berdoa dalam sujud sejadah ditangisi
Aku pasrah sahaja pada Yang Esa
Kerna ku tahu dua dunia kita berbeza...

p/s angel dan cupid juga terluka..

10 REASONS WHY BEING SINGLE IS GREAT

2008-10-24T02:29:00.000+08:00

Reason #1: You have a better body.
We have all been there you get into a relationship, and suddenly you’re trying out new recipes all the time and cuddling instead of exercising. Well, things tend to get worse with marriage. A recent Cornell University study found that women generally gain five to eight pounds in the first few years of marriage and unhappily married women gain an average of 54 pounds in the first 10 years.

For the unmarried, though, the motivation to stay slim remains: “Singles look at themselves through the eyes of others and want to be attractive to potential partners,” says Susan Davis, Ph.D., a clinical psychologist in New York City, “so they’re still ‘working on themselves.’” In short, being single is way better than any New Year’s resolution or exercise DVD to motivate you to stay in shape.

Reason #2: You’re more likely to achieve great things.
It’s amazing what you can accomplish when you have the time, the quiet and the lack of familial responsibilities. In fact, your premarital motivation to excel in life may be biologically programmed. According to a study conducted at the London School of Economics and Political Scientists, male scientists who stay single longer peak in their careers later in life and tend to be more productive than their married counterparts. Researchers theorize that men, in general, may show off their talents to win the interest of women and then, once they’ve won a wife, get comfortable and do less. In fact, studies have shown that testosterone levels, which boost action, decrease after a man gets married and has children. So single folk should know they are primed to achieve whether that means turbo-charging their careers or honing their rock-climbing skills and get out there and work it!

Reason #3: You do less housework.
You know that saying about a tree falling in a forest and there’s no one there to hear it? Well, if you leave a sock on the floor but there’s no one else there to see it, does it really need to be picked up? If you’re a single woman, you can contemplate deep questions like this one because you have more free time. According to one study published in the Journal of Marriage and Family, women do less housework when single than when married. Men, on the other hand, do more housework when unmarried (that’s probably because there’s someone picking up after them once they’re wed…). So the message here is for unmarried women to enjoy their less chore-filled life; fill those free hours with classes, good books, blabbing with friends whatever makes you happy.

Reason #4: You can do what you want with your money including keep it.
Go ahead: Splurge on that pricey moisturizer or that obscenely large plasma TV you’ve been lusting after. You don’t have to justify your purchase to anyone but yourself. Once you mix money with marriage, though, things change and fast. According to a survey by Smart Money magazine, 40 percent of women and 36 percent of men have lied to their spouses about a purchase. “When you’re single, your finances are your own,” explains Phyllis Chase, a Los Angeles based psychologist and co-host of the radio show Shrink Rap. “When you’re married, you have to deal with different styles of spending and saving, and you may take on your partner’s debt.” And a marriage that doesn’t make it for the long haul can also have a major negative effect on one’s wealth. According to researchers at Ohio State University’s Center for Human Resource Research, during a divorce, men and women generally lose three-fourths of their personal net worth. Double ouch.

Reason #5: You have better sex.
Married couples may have more sex (approximately 98 times a year vs. singles’ 49), but singles have better sex. According to a recent study published in the British Medical Journal, married women are significantly more likely to report problems with their sex lives than single women. “People who are dating have better sex because it’s novel,” says Davis. “Married people have to relearn how to play. It’s natural for singles because that’s the nature of a courting relationship they tease, they experiment, they explore.” Nature lends a helping hand, too. According to researchers at the University of Pisa in Italy, raging testosterone levels in both men and women makes the sex hotter during the first two years of a relationship. After that, other hormones take over most notably, oxytocin, a bonding chemical, kicks in. While getting connected and comfortable is a positive step in a relationship, long-term lovers have to work harder to keep things hot in the bedroom. Singles, however, sizzle just the way they are.

Reason #6: You’re better rested and smarter.
While snuggling up next to a warm body can be pretty fantastic, according to a survey conducted by the National Sleep Foundation, your bed mate can cause you to lose an average of 49 minutes of sleep per night. Sleeping two to a bed just isn’t as restful as snoozing solo. Other studies confirm that singles generally get more rest seven to eight hours of sleep a night than married couples, which enhances memory, mood and concentration, as well as allows your immune system to recharge. And, according to scientists at the University of Luebeck in Germany, creativity and problem-solving may directly correlate with getting enough sleep. In the study, participants were given a math puzzle; those who’d had eight hours of sleep or more before tackling it were three times more likely to get the right answer than those who slept less. So, singles, revel in the fact that you’re alert, rested and have that extra brain power edge.

Reason #7: You’re less depressed.
Although the media often perpetuates the image of single people being down in the dumps, overall unmarried people tend to be happier than their married counterparts if you’re a woman, that is. One report by the World Health Organization indicated that married women, especially ones with children, have a higher risk for depression than single women, and researchers at the University of London found that single women generally have fewer mental-health issues. “Marriage, in many ways, seems to benefit men more than women,” says Davis. “For women, there’s more of a loss of self.” And, of course, today’s women often feel like they need to do it all have a career, take care of the kids and perform other traditionally “female” responsibilities. “People who aren’t married are still investing in themselves,” says Davis. “It’s not selfish it’s giving to yourself, and that’s something married people can learn from single people.”

Reason #8: You have better friendships.
Significant others are a wonderful thing, no doubt, but friends count, too. And on that front, one study found that, when women get married and have children, they spend much less time with their friends less than five hours a week, down from 14 hours. Singles, however, often have the greatest sense of friendship and community which can actually decrease stress levels, according to researchers at UCLA.

Here's another way to look at this: “Singles don’t rely on just one person to meet their needs. You don’t automatically know who you’re going to spend Friday night with,” says Sasha Cagen, author of Quirky alone: A Manifesto for Uncompromising Romantics. “The plus side is that you have a lot of different people in your life and potentially a greater sense of social possibilities.”

Reason #9: Your travel tales are enviable.
Married couples take the most vacations, dominating the market with 62 percent of all trips taken, but singles arguably go on more interesting trips. According to the Travel Industry Association of America, singles corner the adventure-travel market, engaging in activities like white water rafting, scuba diving and mountain biking. Being single and relatively footloose certainly allows you to expand your geographical and personal borders. “I have lived abroad, backpacked for close to a year, have been in love three times and much more,” says Courtney Davis, 27, a media-relations manager in Boston. “With every place and every person, my world has expanded.”

Reason #10: You know yourself and what you want out of a relationship.
You are a better catch now than you were at 20. You may have signs of, ahem, experience etched on your face, but that’s OK because you’re more interesting and more self-aware. Not only have you grown as a person, but you’ve probably been through the ringer a few times in matters of love and now know what you want and what you don’t. Experts say that bodes well for future marital success and may actually decrease the likelihood of divorce. “When people get married young, they often feel like the other person will complete them, and they have trouble moving past that Hollywood myth,” explains Chase. “But maturity brings so much, because if you’re able to communicate who you are and what you want, the better your chances of having a successful marriage.” And that’s a wonderful message: Your single self is great... and should you find the right person and decide to marry, you’re more likely to thrive in that stage of your life, too.

p/s A friend of mine send me this,which is very good..tepat pada masanya~

Taggged by Taskin~

2008-10-14T23:01:00.000+08:00

Rules.

Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.

At the end, you need to choose 5 people to be tagged and list their names.

No tags back.

15 weird things/habits/little known facts about me~

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bet you guys are wondering why i didn't write anything kan?
well i do believe that u need to keep something for yourself,a bit of secret..if everything about me being posted here,what's left for my future wife to discover later?i'm sure she wants to know something else bout me besides things in the bedroom kan?

disclaimer ;- I don't write any 18sx novels ;p

Zodiac signs~

2008-10-07T16:10:00.000+08:00

well i got this from sham, but i think its a good thing..hee..

VIRGO - The Perfectionist
Dominant in relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy Pessimistic.

SCORPIO - The Intense One
Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional.

LIBRA - The Harmonizer
Nice to everyone they meet. Can' t make up their mind Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily Procrastinators. Very gullible.

ARIES - The Daredevil
Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge. EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.

AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart
Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique. Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality.

GEMINI - The Chatterbox
Smart and witty. Outgoing, very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable but needs to express themselves. Argumentative and outspoken. Likes change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent, But is only changeable. Beautiful physically and mentally.

LEO - The Boss
Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. Doing the right thing is important to Leos. Attractive.

CANCER - The Protector
May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others Easily hurt, but sympathetic.

PISCES - The Dreamer
Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don ' t like details. Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful.

CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter
Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimists. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be unfriendly at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want.

TAURUS - The Enduring One
Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings who are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard - passionate. Express themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulge themselves often. Very generous.

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One
Good-natured optimist. Doesn ' t want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn ' t like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn ' t like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn ' t like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

so you see, all the bold words are the thing that people often said to me and things that i discover bout myself..so i guess,even if i'm a taurus, i still have other zodiac traits..so it makes me an all rounder..haha..they said self - praise is no praise but, who give a sh*t? as long as i'm happy thats fine i guess ;)

disclaimer - I'm not liable for any of this ;p

Fallen in love with 2 persons

2008-10-01T06:12:00.000+08:00

i don't know why i have so much idea on raya's morning..;p

Well, if you were caught in this dilemma, there is definitely nothing wrong with that. What to say, we are human after all, creature of great emotions. There is no way we can stop that very love chemical from producing and pumping within us. It is just very natural for one to develop a liking for another opposite sex especially when they are just physically attractive in appearance too.And not to mention that when the both are also getting along very well with one another?

In our interactions with one another, there just couldn’t be only one but many of also others opposite sex whom we would meet. And very often, we would just develop a liking for some of them, sometimes even more than just two. That is life. Life is just full of choices. But then again, what is the meaning of choice? Very simple, it means having to make a decision over which to choose and in this case whom to be choosing, choosing the one whom you are going to love. Yup, there is nothing wrong with fallen in love with more than one person as long as at the end of the day, you make your choice. And to be able to truly experience some real love, you have to. Yes, it is only when you are physically into a real relationship will you be able to then acquire and truly experience that real joyfulness and sweetness of being in love. If you never give yourself that chance to be in one, you will just never feel it.

Even a child understands this. Recall your childhood. I should believe that you have experienced wanting just everything when you were at the toy store. Everything just seem so fascinating to you then, wasn’t it? So you cried and bet for your mum and dad to buy them for you. And very often, you are only given the choice of choosing only one. But you refused the offer and continue to cry hoping you would be able to just get everything. And what happened in the end? You ended up with nothing at all. So you grown smarter choosing only one the next time, successfully getting what you want and eventually get to enjoy playing with your new toy, having lot of funs with it didn’t you?
Well, we can’t of course deny that facts that some lucky kids may get more than just one of what they beg for. But at the end of the day, of the toys they have got, he or she would eventually like one of them best, isn’t it? Hmmm…? Still remember what was your favorite toy?

If as a kid back then, you were able to make that decision over which toys to choose, why is it you can’t now? Not able to make up your mind over whom to choose. Think about it. You certainly want to be able to experience some great and just fantastic love, don’t you? Then you have to just be like a smart kid, cleverly knowing how to be getting his or her toys. Remember, you can’t have the best of the both worlds and that is for sure. Just like choosing your toys, you have to make that decision over whom to choose and only then will you have the chance to get to enjoy that wonderfulness of being in love. Hmmm…? Didn’t you just forget about the other toys at the toy store while enjoying yourself playing with that new toy you have chosen for yourself?

Believe me, things may seem great and wonderful at first having the companionship of more than just one. But it is just all of a short-term happiness. At the end of the day, the one losing out is going to be only you yourself. You will just probably end up with nothing at all, back to loneliness just once again. This is what our many friends at our forum have feedback. Nonetheless, a genuine true love is what I believe you are seeking? If you are not able to control your feeling well, you may unknowingly found yourself falling into the region of lust, hurting someone whom may very possibly be liking you too. I am sure this is something you wouldn’t want, right? Now, follow where your heart goes. Between the both, there will definitely be one whom you will like more. Just give yourself some time… And when you found that answer, all the correct actions would just very naturally follow; you will just know what you have to be doing. In life, it is only when your goal or objective is clear will you know where to be heading and moving on.
Be it the path of life or love, I am sure you don’t want to be lost and stuck, not knowing where to go? Remember, the longer you drag things, the worse will the situation become. And in the end, you might not only be hurting those who truly love you but also yourself too. When you have to choose, you just have to. Having choices is always better than having none at all, isn’t it? Now, not many may be as fortunate as you. So, don’t lose that chance when you have it. Work things the smart way. Learn to cherish what you have…

*disclaimer- I'm not in this situation right now ;p

interpretation; what do you think of this pic?

2008-10-01T05:42:00.000+08:00

been cleaning up files and documents in my laptop..just a routine cleanup until i found this picture..its kinda weird i guess..but somehow deep in my heart thinks that this picture is more meaningful than others...

so you see,both of the main character in the picture was smiling pleasantly..seems like the two of them was enjoying that moment..moments which led to a creation of sweet memories..as much as i want to believe...the girl in the picture was telling me that she hate me for forcing her to suap the guy in the picture but in the end,both of them seems to be happy as in the world revolved just around the two of them..

i wonder why?

just another question that i don't think i have the answer...

am i crazy or i just have a split personality?

2008-10-01T05:23:00.000+08:00

its 5.23 in the morning..not to mention its the raya's morning..i can't sleep..too many things that is on my mind(including her).. I've been wondering for quite sometimes now..yesterday, and old friend of my mine said something..which i usually don't care..but since she's one of the person that knows me well in my life,her words seems to have a bigger impact than others..

she said : why are you so mean these days?
i said : well,reality bites dear n it is not as sweet as you think..that's why I'm doing you a favor now..so you know what to expect in life...
she said : you've changed a lot since the last time we met...
i said : i don't changed pon..or maybe I've grown wiser..
she said : I'm kinda miss the "old" you..the sweet one..even if you've grown wiser,that doesn't mean you should be mean to others dear..

i was left clueless....

to be honest, i don't know why i've been so mean lately..but i'm still the same old person..still sweet.. still knows how to respect others(i hope)..even emellia said that sometimes she's scared with me..maybe its my defense mechanism..i just don't want to be hurt..or maybe i'm turning into a monster..i don't know..but i guess its all part of life where you need to discover your true color,your true self..just hope that along the process,i wont be hurting too much people..

i don't blame people to hate me,in fact i don't mind if other people hates me..i just want to be myself..to be honest and frank even if it hurts you like hell coz reality bites and it is not as sweet as you think..

wanna bet with me?

to juggle or to love?

2008-09-29T04:17:00.000+08:00

cinta itu buta, dan juga boleh membutakan,
melukakan dan sukar untuk kita lupakan...

now,that's a line from dua dunia by too phat feat siti...
yesterday a friend of mine asked about how to juggle people around instead of breaking up or letting the "precious someone" go..so, but before i give any opinion,lets identify which category of juggler you people want to be :

basically,there's three type of juggler (according to my observation n experience)

Juggler 1 a.k.a miss/mr i can't be alone

this type usually a person who can't stand himself/herself being alone..always want accompany a.k.a bf/gf..now they usually take whatever they have in front of them.ie, someone who shows interest or even ex(s)..the part of juggling begins when they tend to take everything in front of them without choosing and later on do not know how to "buang"..

juggler 2 a.k.a ms/mr i'm keeping my option open

this usually happens when a third party comes into a relationship..even though it is not wrong and not impossible for a person to fall with two person at the same time, but it suck when u are included in this love triangle..the person who loved both would have a tough time choosing between the two which have their own qualities..later stage of this lovey triangle would be lots of emotional pain and stress

juggler 3 a.k.a ms/mr im a player

this type,guess everyone knows..a person who cheat,lie just to get in lots of other people pants and skirts and also blouses and etc...this type usually have sky rocket confidence,charming and also skills..its hard to identify this type lately because they too have evolve into much more complex character that sometimes you would misjudge a person who have a high level of confidence as player..just beware,and also don't let your guard down,not even a sec when you feel something isn't right..

so, in which category are you?

basically, if u want to be a juggler, u'll need to have three criteria ;-
1-brain,
2-confidence
3-skills
4-looks
5-money
*note that the no4 and no5 are plus point but not necessary

in order to have a brain, u'll need a lot of reading..current issues,mags and also travel brochures..
u'll never know what u might encounter..for instance, u never been to Bali but u have read something about Bali,u can use this as a subject of conversation..also imagine u trying to hit a kelantanese chick but u never been to kelantan,u can used the information from the travel brochures to talk or something..atleast u are not like those dumbjock who sit in front of a nice girl and goes um erm mmm nthen smile like kerang busuk...

what about confindence?..a key factor between a player and a playar..how to build up your confidence?...i dont know..u need to find out yourself because different people have different ways to boost their confidence..for instance,i joined the debate club when i was a freshman and it helped me a lot ;p (to raise my confidence not to become a juggler)...

the last key would be the skills..a true player would have its own skills and trademark..it would developed naturally along the way and along the game..most of it through pain and humiliation during trial and error period..once they get the vibe and rythm of the game,they are on their way to win the game..

another two plus point i do not need to elaborate..u guys should know..

so in my humble opinion,no one needs to be hurt or to feel hurt..jgn la bermain dgn perasaan orang lain..because what goes around,comes around..nnt biler dah terkena btg hidung baru nak nyesal..x de maknenye makcik!!! hehe...

post ni ditujukan kepada emellia yang cube merebut suami org..a.k.a sir ;p
*disclaimer - I'm neither a juggler nor a player..I'm just a plain advisor

How to survive a break up~

2008-09-26T04:47:00.000+08:00

Lately,many of my friends came and ask fer my advice on relationship and etc2..
some of them even called me doctor love or cupid but i'm not..even i screwed up sometimes in my relationship,but it doesn't stopped me from helping others..

so,for those who are in need of advice on how to survive a break up,here are the famous 5 tips i would gave which i got it from Rich Santos - a columnist in marie claire

1. Ride Off Into The Sunset

Riding off into the sunset keeps our dignity. When a girl breaks up with me, I will say:

"OK, it was great getting to know you over the past (insert length of time).You take care."

My business is done.

Then, I will figuratively ride off into the sunset. I won't tell her how much I miss her. I won't tell her she made a mistake. I won't call, email or text. I won't mention her to mutual friends. I'll be gone from her life.

Suddenly, it will dawn on the girl that she is not getting her money's worth for this breakup. It is true: people who do the breaking up have an air of power to them. They like being the decision maker, and having the control. But after I walk away like it's no problem, she'll start to think:

"Wow, why isn't he shaken up over this? Did he even care that I broke up with him?"

Or even better, the ever-popular and coveted:

"Did I do the right thing breaking up with him?"

That's when you know you're in business.

2. Apply the Wizard of Oz Effect

Of course, most likely, we are in total pain and anguish after a break up. But, we can't let that show. Remember:

"Pay no mind to that man behind the curtain?"

We can, behind the curtain, cry, complain, yell, be angry, and hurt. But, we must craft the appearance on the outside of being fine with everything. We need to look happy on the outside to the other person 100% of the time we see them post-breakup.

This also gives the illusion that you might be seeing someone else, or that you've got other things going on. Of course you're miserable and there's NOTHING going on in your life, but they don't have to know it!

Make It Quick?

3. Enact the Verb in "Breaking Up"

Get rid of all evidence of them -- put it all in a closet, under your bed, or anywhere. I'm a sucker for a strand of hair or her shampoo smell left on a pillow after a girl is over. After the breakup, this must go: wash the sheets! Remember, in breaking up, to think of it like a guillotine: make it fast.

On a guillotine, you'd rather have a sharp blade slice your head right off than a blunt blade repeatedly cut and cut until your head finally fell off.

If it's a break up they want, make it clean for them. It will look good, and it will be easier on you. Flush them right out of your life immediately, and completely.

4. Don't Look Back

It's hard to accomplish this. We know not to look back, just like we know not to look down when someone says don't look down...but we still look down. But, make it easy on yourself: looking back and saying stuff like:

"Gosh, just two weeks ago,we were out to dinner and she stayed over here and we were so close..."

...will just make it more painful. You can't look back until it's time to look back when you're truly over it.

5. Remember You'll Get Over It

The best thing about breaking up is those following mornings you wake up after you've truly gotten over someone. You're renewed, alive, and ready to see what the world has to offer. Keep pushing through for this feeling, remember all those people you thought you'd never get over (you know you ended up getting over them), and as Jim Morrison once crooned: "break on through to the other side!"

Well I don't know about you, but after going through all that, I'm inspired to get dumped!

who cut down the cherry tree?

2008-09-25T23:56:00.000+08:00

> Legend has it that George Washington, America's first president,
> chopped down a cherry tree in his youth. His father saw the damaged
> tree and asked his son if he knew who did it. George was quoted
> bravely admitting the truth:

> 'I can't tell a lie, Pa; you know I can't tell a lie. I cut it with my axe.'

Below is a satire of how some Malaysian politicians circa 2008 may have reacted to the same question:

> Abdullah Ahmad Badawi - 'I did not chop down that cherry tree; I was just taking a nap under it.'

> Najib Razak - 'I swear that I have never MET that tree.'

> Hishamuddin Hussein Onn - '...but I only own a keris ,not an axe; so how to chop down that cherry tree?'

> Dr Mahathir Mohamd - 'Apa nama cherry tree, yes, I chopped it down because, I don't like the idea of Pak Lah sleeping under it.'

> VK Lingam - 'It could be me, it may be me but I don't think it's me.'

> Anwar Ibrahim - 'I did NOT do it, and I am not giving any DNA sample for you to plant on the axe handle.'

> Mohd Khir Toyo - 'The new state government should just trim the grass and not waste time asking who cut the tree.'

> Ahmad Said (Terengganu MB) - 'I chopped it down because cherry trees are more expensive to maintain than durian trees.'

> Azalina Othman - 'Cherry tree is not included in my tourism MOU so I chopped it down. Besides, there are so many unauthorised signboards being put up by Ah Long around that damn tree.'

> Shabery Cheek - 'Not me. I challenge you to an open debate on tree cutting.'

> S Samy Velu - 'I chopped it down because Hindraf members were using it as a meeting point.

> Wira Ali Rustam - 'We have planted durian trees for 50 years and we will plant them for another 50 years. We do not need cheery trees, apple trees, pear trees and all these other foreign trees.'

> Rais Yatim - 'You must see the bigger picture, Ahmad Said said cherry trees are expensive to maintain; Ali Rustam said that's against our national identity and, I needed to test my new axe; so you see, it is a WIN-WIN situation all around.'

> Sharir Samad - 'I cut the tree because we could no longer afford to subsidise it.'

> Karpal Singh - 'The bigfoot creature did it.'

> Bung Mokhtar - 'The big monkey did it.'

> Pandikar Amin Mulia (Speaker) - 'There is nothing in the standing orders against chopping cherry trees. Kinabatangan duduk, Bukit Gelugor duduk.

> Khairy Jamaluddin - 'I did not do it, neither did the Mat Rempits. By the way, what's a cherry tree?'

> Lim Kit Siang - 'Cherry tree also you don't know; you are an insult to Oxford!'

> Nazri Abdul Aziz - 'Racist, racist, racist! When we cut down durian trees nobody made a fuss. Now....'

> Malaysian Citizens - 'Oh for heaven's sake! Somebody please plant something before we all starve to death!'

hOme sweet HoMe~

2008-09-25T08:32:00.000+08:00

just arrived at duta around 5. 10 a.m tadi.....

now 8.32..guling2 kat bilik feveret.....best weh...

sape2 yang belum pulang..cepat2...rugi..uiTm x besh mane...hahaha...

anyway..selamat tidur semua..n hari ni dgn condifen i x puasa coz kene makan ubat ;p

*bilik feveret kuh*

Knape?

1-ada guitar
2-ada wifi
3-ada phone
4-ada dvd n tv
5-ade woofer

senang cakap,bilek ni ade semua..tu yg sy malash nak blaja ;P

And so it begins~

2008-09-24T01:05:00.000+08:00

it started as a minor fever..so i pon malas la nak makan ubat..but the next day my whole body panas giler and my eyes bengkak..nthen afta two days of tersiksa, i pon pegi hospital..

and guess what?????

suspected denggi and i kene masuk wad kecemasan at 10.39 - (21/9/08)

so, mcm biasa..amik temperature i..i ignt bdn i x panas but biler doc cakap its 40.4 celcius..i pon senyap jap..nthen tnya..

alex: 40.4? biasakan?
doc: emm biasa la kalau nk dekat2 mati...

alex(dalam hati) : fcuk!

so, kene amik darah.....

here's the pic...

seram?hell yeah..
siap dedua tgn bai..

last2 terus drip n i padam..lalala

2.47 A.M

2008-09-21T02:46:00.000+08:00

well, it 47 minutes pass two o'clock in the morning..having a bad day..mata bengkak,demam n all sorts of stuff running through my mind..yet,i'm happy..why?

1st- i got my friends who will always by my side..
2nd- i got "her" ;p
3rd- i'm playing call of duty4 pagi2 buta..

yeah i'm happy...hehe..

tp today tiada purnama..

kemana agaknya menghilang?

aku tidak punya jawapan...

perempuan & malaikat

2008-09-16T05:02:00.000+08:00

~Wahai perempuan yang datang atas nama cinta~

Aku hanya sang pujangga,
Yang merawat hati yang lara.

Tapi kamu,
Bagai malaikat.
Yang turun dari langit,
Menyampaikan wahyu cinta,
Yang aku masih tidak mengerti,
Dari dahulu hingga kini.

Aku hanya sang pujangga,
Yang mahu menjadi pencinta.
Pencinta perempuan seperti kamu,
Wahai malaikat yang muncul dalam hidupku.

show off ;P

2008-09-15T23:24:00.002+08:00

well,what can i say?i'm famous haha

mungkin?

2008-09-15T23:24:00.001+08:00

Kita

Tuhan ketemukan aku dengan mu,
Aku yang berbeda dengan mu
Agamaku dan agamamu,
Hidupku dan hidupmu,
Budayaku dan budayamu.

Tapi

Berbeda, tapi masih diketemukan,
Apakah hanya satu kebetulan?
Atau ianya sebuah permulaan?

Kamu

Redakanlah hatiku,
Padamkanlah dukaku.

Aku

Hanya seorang hamba,
Yang mengimpikan sebuah syurga.

Lalu

Ternukilnya tulisan cinta,
Yang datang atas nama cinta.

Puisi sebuah hati

2008-09-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

Hati,

Unik dan mengasyikkan.
Kerna hati, aku melihatnya,
Kerna hati, aku tertarik kepadanya.

Dia,

Dalam kelembutan,
Ada kesedihan.
Dalam ketenangan,
Ada kedukaan.

Lalu,

Dengan senyumannya yg menawan,
Membuat hati ini tertawan.
Adakah ini cinta yg diminta?
Atau hanya ulangan luka?

Aku,

Sedikit demi sedikit,
Saat demi saat,
I’m falling for u – deep inside.

New

2008-09-14T02:09:00.000+08:00

hey there,

well its been a while since i wrote something electronically..i used to write at xanga but lately
seems a bit hard to maintain..therefore i set up this new sites for a piece of my mind..hope u guys can accept a new comer like me ahaks!

yours truly,

alexhakim